here fishy fishy fishy!

so i would just like to let everyone know i am officially going to become a Pro Bass fisherman... ok so maybe not, BUT me&tyler have been out fishing almost everday for a week now, i go to work with him and we fish in between truck dumps [he does excavating... right now he's pushing dumptruck loads of dirt, cement etc into the side of a lake, it takes the trucks a good 30 minutes to go back and forth] we've been catching Pike from about 1.5 feet to 2.3 ft long... they get up to a hefty 4ft and weigh in around 38lbs! so yesterday tyler decided he'd get me my own rod [Shakespeare Mantis], since we only have one right now [Shakespeare Ugly Stik]. i'm so excited to get out there tomorrow and cast it... see how she holds!

who'd ever had thought i'd become a li'l outdoorsman. [granted i still won't pee outside or kill the fish.]

down with the sickness.

lately i've been really homesick, which isn't me at all! in the past year i have only been home for about 3 visits, totaling 3 months all together. sure i miss the family and friends i have there but it has never made me feel "homesick" until now.
i miss my friends, some days i just want to call them up and go to Grey's Lake to lay at the small beach or go to the mall to shop and have some auntie anne's or coldstone.
i miss my family, i want to sit at the dinner table with my parents and siblings and laugh at brother making fun of my dad, or busting up becuase he was "ripping one" right while in the middle of grace or conversation, and asking my little sister about swim practice and what not.

i think this homesick feeling has been brought upon me due to the fact i can't work here. or go to school. and none of my friends are here.

what's been keeping me going is the fact i am in love with and going to marry, the most wonderful man there is, and that's no lie or exaggeration. he has been here for me and loves me for me. even if i dont brush my teeth or comb my hair! haha. planning our wedding has been good, it's exciting and i can't wait for the day to come when we are one. and guess what... finally my full name will fit on the dotted line!

and something else i'm pretty excited for is to come home and see my family after 6 months, and my cousin, and friends... and knowing i'll be in iowa for awhile this time is a pretty good feeling as well :D

with love.

engaged&underaged

so as most of you know this weekend while taking a mini-vacation to Kelowna, British Columbia [BC] i got engaged! yes, i celebrated my 19th birthday and now i am celebrating my engagement! oh how exciting!! i was actually quite suprised, i had been expecting to get engaged earlier this year because me and Tyler had talked about when we'd like to get married and went and looked at rings, and i'd told him what i'd like. [3 stone in a low setting, white gold, and diamonds on the band... he picked the perfect one!] so by now i had figured he was going to wait until I left or maybe do it once we were back in Iowa in August. but nope! here's how it went.
THE STORY::
We got to Kelowna, BC Friday night around 8 or 9pm. then Saturday morning Tyler was up and ready to hit the beach at 10am, i was still fairly groggy and sleepy but the thought of getting some sun and laying in the sand woke me right up. we went to the beach until about 4pm and then went to his grandparent's to change into clothes for dinner.
We ate at a waterfront restaurant with quite the sunset veiw. then we proceeded to driving to Mount Knox/Knox Mountain, which ever you prefer... and sat at the top of this mountain over looking the city of Kelowna you could see almost all the city it was beautiful!
While sitting on a couple of big rocks I noticed that sticker plants had started growing in the cracks as I stuck my hand right into it's thorny clusters. so I stood up to make sure i didn't have any in the bottom of my pants, sure enough i felt the little thorns poking my bum. here's the good part :D
as I was trying to brush my bum of the annoying pokey thorns Tyler helped me and right before I went to sit down you told me to hold on, and not to sit down yet, as he got on one knee the biggest cheesiest smile came to my face, i could totally feel it, and he asked me if i "would make him the happiest man alive" and if i "would marry him" !!! I said yes in a heartbeat, and he laughed and said "but you haven't even seen the ring yet?" and I told him "it doesn't matter it could be from a candy machine I'd still marry him"

and that was my blessed weekend lol...

picture one is of the ring.
two is of the view from out table at the waterside restaurant
three is us! the happy couple haha.

it is <3

being 19.

nineteen years. i've been alive for 19 years, i think this is the year that i realize i'm still young... very young, but i'm getting older. why do i think this? because this is the first year i don't feel older, even last year when i turned 18 i actually felt older. also, i didn't get up at 8am all jittery about it being my birthday, i wasn't overly excited like i was at 16, or 18. maybe it's because 19 is an age that doesn't mean a whole lot.

in the states 19 is just the year after 18, i can't officially do anything new or different then last year.
now if i lived in B.C. this would be my big year because now i can gamble&drink but that's not too exciting to me.
so here i am... 19, and no new rights/privileges. i have the right to buy porn, join the military, gamble in some indian casinos, and i can have a "real" credit card... same as last year. i still can't legally purchase or drink alcohol [unless i'm in canada or mexico] or rent a car or gamble at a fancy casino. not that I want to do any of those things, but the fact that i can't do those thing reminds me that although my country considers me legally an adult, i am not fully treated like one.

besides the fact i didn't wake up all jittery and excited to turn 19, i am glad God has blessed me with 19 healthy years of life thus far, i pray he continues to bless me this way as a healthy mind and body mean so much to me. so i will enjoy my birthday dinner and Moxies with Tyler, and then bullriding at Ralph's with friends, and weekend with Tyler in B.C. relaxing on the beautiful beaches [i pray the weather is nice, sunny, and hot!] and until next year!

p.s. it was so depressing to wake up this morning and not have a li'l bundle of fur curled up next to me with his head on my pillow like every other morning. i want haanz back, i wish that was an option. bleh!

goodbye li'l guy.

today i had to get rid of haanz. yes, my li'l buddy haanz. we had a couple of complaints from neighbours that said he whines/barks for about half an hour to an hour when we leave him here alone, and we can't take him EVEYWHERE with us, sooo I had to find him a new home that will give him what he needs. i found a nice young couple who made him part of the family before they even had him in hand. i happen to run into them in WalMart [she was standing next to me looking at beds and i had noticed her british/english accent haha] while buying a new leash and collar for him, and they were buying him a nice big bed and some tennis balls [his favourite] they also have a fenced in yard and two small dogs in the house next to them... so he will be so happy about that.

but haanz is missed, and i'm a little bummed about it still, i'm just glad he found a nice owner and house and yard to go to.